It's a Saturday, so you think it would be a fabulous day. I do admit that I like that there is some sunshine peaking through. I don't know how long that will last. I woke up at 2:00, then 5:00, then just awakeness. Yes, I realize that's not a word, but at 5am it is. Do you experience this? I start to wonder what the whole world is doing at that moment. I go to social media to see who else might be awake and to pretend I know why.
Sometimes I want to watch other people's lives to see if I am doing it right. Sometimes I'm not sure. One thing I know, I certainly am different from the people around me. I suppose the day I know why our ways of thinking, our philosophies, our music, our culture don't align, will either be a day of joy or suffering. Honestly, I don't need those things to align, I think that may be one big difference between me and others.
We are just one lucky planet, filled with billions of people who may be feeling more contempt and hate than ever before. Although, perhaps not more that those building the ancient pyramids. However the pain is caused, the effect is the same, whether it be in the mind or the body. Maybe someone will read this one day in the future, maybe not even a human. To those that are better than us, I welcome you, to those who are the same, I apologize, and to those who are worse, perhaps our history will teach you something. We could never seem to learn from it, but I do not consider that the intelligent thing to do.
Well, that was a bit of a diatribe. Sorry future and present people, I will try to stay on task. I woke up early, it sucked, I cried, life makes no sense, yada yada yada. Just a side note as I end this blog, please do not ask how I am if you don't want to know. It's hard to share the bad times, don't make it worse.