I know I haven't written in a few days, maybe longer. The days have been something I don't really have the capacity to describe in words. I will try though, and see if you have ever felt this way too. It's like being in a holding pattern in a jet plane that is running out of fuel. Will I ever land safely?
I wish I didn't feel this. I wish some old part of me would come alive and fight back. Maybe she's in there, I am so lost right now, I don't even know. It's been about a year now since I have felt this overwhelmed with life. Do you ever feel like you've lost yourself, but you don't even know if that was ever you to bein with. Life has taught me to put on many masks. The only one I wear lately is sadness.